I'm french I'm 19 studying in canada, music, photography,, insomia, nothing special just a place I need to vent out.
I come to you today tumblr, on this first post with a bad case of insomia, due to the fact I started a tolerence break today, and I had been using weed to cope with it. Enough of that though I guess I should introduce myself I’m alex 19, French/americain, going to college in canada, my main passtimes for the past 6 years have been, weed, music, photography, and fucking nature. capslock the nature because to me its the only beauty I can still see in this world outside of the rare few good and honest people that still exist today and photography as my tool to in essence try to catch the shot that i saw with my own eyes. I guess I should get to the point of what I came here to do… vent off that steam. The real reason I’m starting a T break is last week probably the only person in canada that I truly care for got sent to the hospital after repettive and worsening panic attacks, she is still there today, they want to keep her as she started new medication, until she gets used to it, and because of that med she decided on the spot to quit weed. Which got me thinking… I’ve been smoking weed on a regular heavy basis for the past 4 or 5 years…what has actually been done in that time? constant short 2 week t breaks, meaningless sex, unhappy relationships, so the question I truly ask myself, could I still enjoy life sober? I want to see how far I can go, for her in a way, because I still want to spend my time with her, and if that meant stopping weed I’d be fine with that, but once your ciggerette goes out what happens then? I know that we would be fine when together, but once apart how would I handle it? So many questions I guess I’ll start answering those with actions.